A Story of Faith

Many years ago I lived in Sacramento, California with my then partner Gil “Jun” Sancha. My spiritual journey to becoming the man I am today had been going on for about a year. I was being tortured by Diablo Mephisto Ba’al, Larry Harvey of Burning Man, and some others that considered themselves witches. They knew I was Christ, but I did not.

One day I was on my back patio sitting and crying about the way the world was going and what was happening in my life, I saw a hawk flying in the distance over a field and looked to the sky and said with tears in my eyes “God, if everything is going to be okay let that hawk land on my fence.” Sure enough the hawk flew over and landed on my fence some 6 feet away. I wept.

As time passed things got worse, my life was a mess, I lost everything, and ended up in a studio apartment I could not afford wondering what I had done to deserve this. I thought often about the hawk and wondered why God had sent me the sign. So I went out to my back deck, it was a calm day, and looked again to the sky and said “God, I know you said everything was going to be okay, but it is not, please, if everything is going to be okay let the wind blow.”

Suddenly the wind picked up to a violent storm and a weather warning came on the TV. The storm was raging from San Diego California to Tucson Arizona. I stood there in awe and cried again.

A few days passed and things had gotten much worse. Things where not okay. I didn’t understand how could God be so wrong. Was it just a mean trick to get me to just accept the torture of Diablo, Larry , and the gang, so I looked at the ceiling of my studio and said “God, I know you said everything was going to be okay, but they are not, I don’t understand. I am going to turn on the radio and whatever it say’s I am going to take as a sign and do. If it says to buy a car, I am going to buy a car, if it says to buy a sandwich, I am going to buy a sandwich.”

I walked over to my clock radio and looked up again, mockingly I said “I am going to turn it on, here I go, I am turning on the radio.” and I flipped the switch. The song playing was Faith by George Michael and the words that played where “gotta have faith…” I started to laugh so hard, it was my final sign.

One of the things I have figured out and have “heard” is that evil took those signs for themselves and thought it was okay to torture Christ to death and I had asked but the signs were for them. F’ing idiots.

Years have passed, maybe twenty, and things have not gotten to be okay, but I know they will as I have faith that God is not a liar. During my journey to becoming the Gargoyle, God has helped my every step of the way, evil is strong as it is in the hearts of all men and woman except a few. My battle will never end and I will fight for Allah until my end in this life and in the next as my love for her grows everyday. Someday I know “everything is going to be okay” as God does not lie. I have ultimate faith in my love’s words.